i cant take it anymore
today i cried in school.. if u guys know me well enough.. i'm not the type who cry easily in front of people de.. think even my best frenz like shirlynn amerlyn they all oso see my cry for less than 5 times in total.. think only 3 times at most?? i oso nt sure.. but.. i cried in class today.. not whole class is around.. but my PW group, tanxin blablabla saw me cry.. didnt know i will cry out this time either.. but just cant control.. when i start to talk.. nose suddenly suan diao.. den everything just release since that time.. haix.. stupid me..
i dont know why i cry.. maybe because i am tired over teacher's comments after each draft.. especially when she didnt ask us to make any amendment last time.. this time she comments alot on it.. and also.. the graphs.. i dont know how to read her mind la.. at the time.. i scared she will say if she keep refering to the appendix for our graphs will be very ma fan.. so i spent lots of time transferring, naming, magnifying all the graphs so that the words can be read.. in the end.. she says there are too many graphs.. see le headache...i really dont know what they want la...
i started working on it straight after PD Block opening last sat.. i reach home at 8+pm la.. and i did until midnight.. continue the next day until afternoon.. finally completed everything.. i just dont understand what can i do la? word limit.. still need add so many things.. i want to wash my hands off le loh..
i really feel very stressed.. in JJ.. i want to get good results.. hoping to get partial exemptions for some subjects.. at least 1.. like math or econs.. in the end.. haix.. i got none.. i dont want to do badly for my chinese anymore.. i just dont want to disappoint myself any further.. project work.. i oso dont wish to do badly on our perfect project.. but.. i'm very stressed.. when can i get a break????? i need to recharge my battery.. can i have one day to charge myself??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
gan chu liang duo
im updating again.. today stayed whole day at home.. at first mood was quite good.. but in the end abit sian diao cuz of some reasons.. =D maybe cuz holiday is really so boring ba.. =x.. just now i watched a hongkong drama Healing Hands 3.. about doctors one.. dont know u all know abt this show or not.. okie nvm.. but today's episode that i watched in the afternoon.. has several parts that made me gan chu liang duo.. ONE: there is one part about an old couple.. the grandma was admitted to hospital due to heart attack.. but she is worried about the grandpa.. cuz the grandpa is suffering from lao ren chu dai zheng( i dont know the english name of this illness.. lousy me)... den after she goes home.. she pei the grandpa to go shopping.. den he suddenly disappear.. the grandma v nervous.. den almost got knocked down by a car.. den a doctor couple went to accompany her to go find him.. den on the way.. the grandma told them.. they are not husband n wife.. cuz they met each other after they divorced with the ex-husband and wife.. the grandfather was worried that his children cant accept her.. so they did nt get married that time.. den when his children grew up.. the grandpa wanna wait his children have their own family first.. so dragged again.. who knows.. he in the end got this illness.. cant get married le.. haix... fate... maybe we shld not plan so much for future.. cuz who knows wat will happen in the future.. even if we plan so much.. but will our lives continue according to our plan? so.. treasure wat u have now... dont think too much.. :DTWO:hmmm.. one doctor who specialises in heart diseases... dont care about his family, consisting of his mother and his son.. one day his mom come find him.. he thought she is just being naggy and want him to go home drink soup.. he intended to go.. but was stopped by his ex girlfriend.. den in the end.. his mom and son were having dinner.. his mom got heart attack.. but his son dint know.. cuz he was young.. den his mom went to bed and rest.. think cuz of the heart attack.. she fainted.. and dint wake up.. until the next day when their neighbour sensed sth nt right in their hse.. den know his mom fainted due to heart attack.. and his son was shocked there.. only when his mom was sent to hospital..den he know his mom has heart attack.. he knows nth abt his mom's medical history.. and his mom died cuz of the heart attack.. haix...another one is a mom hurts her baby son in order to get attention from her busy husband who is always nt in the country with her.. in the end her baby died cuz of some brain injury.. haix.. sad right?? why cant everyone just pay more attention to all ur loved ones around you? haix..... wait till they are gone.. den we regret.. but at that time.. we regret may not be able to change the fact of losing them le.. right? so... we must always treasure everyone around us..cuz they are impt to us..
Today is National day~
yes.. today is national day..haha.. but i did nth for the nation.. haha.. which is very normal.. haha.. okie enough of my crapping... let me update myself and anyone who reads my blog (u all r so kind to me.. haha.. cuz i think no one bothers abt my blog)... haha...
Monday:had normal lessons.. hmmm.. got back my chinese yu wen results.. omg.. i failed it la. quite badly... was very sad abt it.. thinking i cant pull back my results anyway... haix... den.. after that when having our chinese literature.. li wen xiao lao shi returned us the paper already.. he super fast la.. 5 long qns for him to mark.. he marked finish liao.. dot.. mdm lee can mark finish still acceptable.. but Mr lee really so pia loh.. dot.. that one i passed.. but nt enough to pull my results back... now got back 90 marks of the full paper.. and i only got 44.. omg.. i need another 6/10 at least to pass my chinese... haix.. i have NEVER had such results for my chinese la.. so disappointed with myself.. even if i got full marks for my tangshi (which is SUPER impossible), i only get an Elephant grade.. nt even a donkey.. haix...
lucky mdm lim gave us back our maths paper to check our marks.. made me feel better.. cuz i got an A.. i super weird la.. last time always fail A maths.. now can get A for 2 terms... wat AM I DOING???!!! i'm so extreme... but worried it is just luck.. cuz i cant really understand many of my math lecture actually... yes.. i am PURE lucky.. yes!den after that stayed back to do the LEP notice board.. and i was super fed up that time.. cuz i rushing the notice board liao.. den ______ still called me to go down to find her to discuss ANOTHER notice board.. i told her i need to rush it cuz i need to go for one meeting for the PD opening ceremony at 4.30pm.. and it was already 4 that time.. she die die wants me go down la!! super sian... den in the end i have to run down and up again to finish sth den left everything to jiang, wenting and tingyun to finish la.. feel so bad.. den i ran down again to LT2 after 10 mins or so.. dot dot dot... den after that went for house meeting.. was quite a nice one.. though not that enthu as orientation la.. but is expected ba? cuz orientation is over for so long... no mood le ba.. everything ends at around 6... late.. sian.. haixTuesday:national day eve.. went back to school for the celebration... hmmm.. first was the investiture of the student leaders.. niu, jiang,wenting and tingyun all are down there.. left with me.. haha.. but nvm la.. saw jasline at canteen.. den went assemble spot with her and shihua.. den mingmin, wanjing and yeumei came oso.. so i wasnt alone. yay! den followed by the interhse sports carnival.. many ppl fell down quite badly la.. so scary.. cuz it rained the night before ytd.. haix.. see le oso xia dao.. ouch loh.. bannister (my hse) not the best house.. or rather is the 3rd i think? or 4th out of 4 hses.. but nvm la.. the runners tried their best le... =D.. the school dismissed late la.. den hai me go bugis late.. sian.. meeting him there.. had quite a nice day there.. heehee... but.. think i caused him to fall sick today le.. haix.. i'm bad.. cuz i thought he wants to celebrate my bday with me ytd de.. den he like so tired den i wasnt v happy.. den at first he wanted to go home rest.. but i bad la.. haix.... i so BAD!!Wednesday (today):ya.. as wat i said today is national day.. and i continue to have no contribution to the nation.. anyway i am nt any big character that can really contribute to singapore.. haha.. just stay at home.. did hw.. use computer.. haha... den watch the NDP celebration in the evening.. got nanhua's performance.. haha.. was a long one.. cuz they are the "ya zhou"... bit weird la.. cuz dun really know wat the performance symbolises.. maybe youth ba.. haha... keep seeing them running here and there making many shapes.. haha... quite united la.. think my bro and his frenz enjoyed themselves??? hahaha...okie la.. end here le haha.. update soon.. :D
Post-Common Test
yay!! common test is FINALLY over! yes!! haha.. torture is over... temporarily la... haha.. up coming.. promo exams.. but... now is happy moment for many of us.. so let's nt splash cold water on us.. yes... directly translation from a chinese phrase..
common test.. doesnt mean I can slack... okie??? first.. i must complete the notice board in LEP classroom tmr.. or rather before 8/8/06... sian la.. den oso prepare the material for chinese publication's notice board... cuz mdm Liu say the notice board now is abit plain and coarse work.. den want the IT grp to deco it again.. and complete before the international riddle competition that is held on 16/8.. means must be done by the national day week.. wah sian!! and she hasnt given me the materials!! how to prepare??? tmr still need to go back school to do the notice board.. ah.. sian..
and oso... 19/8/06... omg loh.. nightmare for me la.. that day is the day of the opening of the LEP block.. and i am appointed to be the "jiang[3] jie[3] yuan[2]" la... like need to explain things around to the GOH.. who is the minister of education la.. in ENGLISH.. omg... ask me speak in mandarin still okie... ask me speak in ENGLISH? where can i find the courage to speak publicly in english la? i will spoil the whole ceremony loh... omg... think i wun be able to sleep on the night before le loh... haix.. but no way i can reject it oso... so.. treat is as an experience loh... if i really made a fool of myself... i will dig a hole on the floor and hide myself inside forever le loh... haha.. jkjk...
end here first le... :D
i cant take it anymore
today i cried in school.. if u guys know me well enough.. i'm not the type who cry easily in front of people de.. think even my best frenz like shirlynn amerlyn they all oso see my cry for less than 5 times in total.. think only 3 times at most?? i oso nt sure.. but.. i cried in class today.. not whole class is around.. but my PW group, tanxin blablabla saw me cry.. didnt know i will cry out this time either.. but just cant control.. when i start to talk.. nose suddenly suan diao.. den everything just release since that time.. haix.. stupid me..
i dont know why i cry.. maybe because i am tired over teacher's comments after each draft.. especially when she didnt ask us to make any amendment last time.. this time she comments alot on it.. and also.. the graphs.. i dont know how to read her mind la.. at the time.. i scared she will say if she keep refering to the appendix for our graphs will be very ma fan.. so i spent lots of time transferring, naming, magnifying all the graphs so that the words can be read.. in the end.. she says there are too many graphs.. see le headache...i really dont know what they want la...
i started working on it straight after PD Block opening last sat.. i reach home at 8+pm la.. and i did until midnight.. continue the next day until afternoon.. finally completed everything.. i just dont understand what can i do la? word limit.. still need add so many things.. i want to wash my hands off le loh..
i really feel very stressed.. in JJ.. i want to get good results.. hoping to get partial exemptions for some subjects.. at least 1.. like math or econs.. in the end.. haix.. i got none.. i dont want to do badly for my chinese anymore.. i just dont want to disappoint myself any further.. project work.. i oso dont wish to do badly on our perfect project.. but.. i'm very stressed.. when can i get a break????? i need to recharge my battery.. can i have one day to charge myself??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
gan chu liang duo
im updating again.. today stayed whole day at home.. at first mood was quite good.. but in the end abit sian diao cuz of some reasons.. =D maybe cuz holiday is really so boring ba.. =x.. just now i watched a hongkong drama Healing Hands 3.. about doctors one.. dont know u all know abt this show or not.. okie nvm.. but today's episode that i watched in the afternoon.. has several parts that made me gan chu liang duo.. ONE: there is one part about an old couple.. the grandma was admitted to hospital due to heart attack.. but she is worried about the grandpa.. cuz the grandpa is suffering from lao ren chu dai zheng( i dont know the english name of this illness.. lousy me)... den after she goes home.. she pei the grandpa to go shopping.. den he suddenly disappear.. the grandma v nervous.. den almost got knocked down by a car.. den a doctor couple went to accompany her to go find him.. den on the way.. the grandma told them.. they are not husband n wife.. cuz they met each other after they divorced with the ex-husband and wife.. the grandfather was worried that his children cant accept her.. so they did nt get married that time.. den when his children grew up.. the grandpa wanna wait his children have their own family first.. so dragged again.. who knows.. he in the end got this illness.. cant get married le.. haix... fate... maybe we shld not plan so much for future.. cuz who knows wat will happen in the future.. even if we plan so much.. but will our lives continue according to our plan? so.. treasure wat u have now... dont think too much.. :DTWO:hmmm.. one doctor who specialises in heart diseases... dont care about his family, consisting of his mother and his son.. one day his mom come find him.. he thought she is just being naggy and want him to go home drink soup.. he intended to go.. but was stopped by his ex girlfriend.. den in the end.. his mom and son were having dinner.. his mom got heart attack.. but his son dint know.. cuz he was young.. den his mom went to bed and rest.. think cuz of the heart attack.. she fainted.. and dint wake up.. until the next day when their neighbour sensed sth nt right in their hse.. den know his mom fainted due to heart attack.. and his son was shocked there.. only when his mom was sent to hospital..den he know his mom has heart attack.. he knows nth abt his mom's medical history.. and his mom died cuz of the heart attack.. haix...another one is a mom hurts her baby son in order to get attention from her busy husband who is always nt in the country with her.. in the end her baby died cuz of some brain injury.. haix.. sad right?? why cant everyone just pay more attention to all ur loved ones around you? haix..... wait till they are gone.. den we regret.. but at that time.. we regret may not be able to change the fact of losing them le.. right? so... we must always treasure everyone around us..cuz they are impt to us..
Today is National day~
yes.. today is national day..haha.. but i did nth for the nation.. haha.. which is very normal.. haha.. okie enough of my crapping... let me update myself and anyone who reads my blog (u all r so kind to me.. haha.. cuz i think no one bothers abt my blog)... haha...
Monday:had normal lessons.. hmmm.. got back my chinese yu wen results.. omg.. i failed it la. quite badly... was very sad abt it.. thinking i cant pull back my results anyway... haix... den.. after that when having our chinese literature.. li wen xiao lao shi returned us the paper already.. he super fast la.. 5 long qns for him to mark.. he marked finish liao.. dot.. mdm lee can mark finish still acceptable.. but Mr lee really so pia loh.. dot.. that one i passed.. but nt enough to pull my results back... now got back 90 marks of the full paper.. and i only got 44.. omg.. i need another 6/10 at least to pass my chinese... haix.. i have NEVER had such results for my chinese la.. so disappointed with myself.. even if i got full marks for my tangshi (which is SUPER impossible), i only get an Elephant grade.. nt even a donkey.. haix...
lucky mdm lim gave us back our maths paper to check our marks.. made me feel better.. cuz i got an A.. i super weird la.. last time always fail A maths.. now can get A for 2 terms... wat AM I DOING???!!! i'm so extreme... but worried it is just luck.. cuz i cant really understand many of my math lecture actually... yes.. i am PURE lucky.. yes!den after that stayed back to do the LEP notice board.. and i was super fed up that time.. cuz i rushing the notice board liao.. den ______ still called me to go down to find her to discuss ANOTHER notice board.. i told her i need to rush it cuz i need to go for one meeting for the PD opening ceremony at 4.30pm.. and it was already 4 that time.. she die die wants me go down la!! super sian... den in the end i have to run down and up again to finish sth den left everything to jiang, wenting and tingyun to finish la.. feel so bad.. den i ran down again to LT2 after 10 mins or so.. dot dot dot... den after that went for house meeting.. was quite a nice one.. though not that enthu as orientation la.. but is expected ba? cuz orientation is over for so long... no mood le ba.. everything ends at around 6... late.. sian.. haixTuesday:national day eve.. went back to school for the celebration... hmmm.. first was the investiture of the student leaders.. niu, jiang,wenting and tingyun all are down there.. left with me.. haha.. but nvm la.. saw jasline at canteen.. den went assemble spot with her and shihua.. den mingmin, wanjing and yeumei came oso.. so i wasnt alone. yay! den followed by the interhse sports carnival.. many ppl fell down quite badly la.. so scary.. cuz it rained the night before ytd.. haix.. see le oso xia dao.. ouch loh.. bannister (my hse) not the best house.. or rather is the 3rd i think? or 4th out of 4 hses.. but nvm la.. the runners tried their best le... =D.. the school dismissed late la.. den hai me go bugis late.. sian.. meeting him there.. had quite a nice day there.. heehee... but.. think i caused him to fall sick today le.. haix.. i'm bad.. cuz i thought he wants to celebrate my bday with me ytd de.. den he like so tired den i wasnt v happy.. den at first he wanted to go home rest.. but i bad la.. haix.... i so BAD!!Wednesday (today):ya.. as wat i said today is national day.. and i continue to have no contribution to the nation.. anyway i am nt any big character that can really contribute to singapore.. haha.. just stay at home.. did hw.. use computer.. haha... den watch the NDP celebration in the evening.. got nanhua's performance.. haha.. was a long one.. cuz they are the "ya zhou"... bit weird la.. cuz dun really know wat the performance symbolises.. maybe youth ba.. haha... keep seeing them running here and there making many shapes.. haha... quite united la.. think my bro and his frenz enjoyed themselves??? hahaha...okie la.. end here le haha.. update soon.. :D
Post-Common Test
yay!! common test is FINALLY over! yes!! haha.. torture is over... temporarily la... haha.. up coming.. promo exams.. but... now is happy moment for many of us.. so let's nt splash cold water on us.. yes... directly translation from a chinese phrase..
common test.. doesnt mean I can slack... okie??? first.. i must complete the notice board in LEP classroom tmr.. or rather before 8/8/06... sian la.. den oso prepare the material for chinese publication's notice board... cuz mdm Liu say the notice board now is abit plain and coarse work.. den want the IT grp to deco it again.. and complete before the international riddle competition that is held on 16/8.. means must be done by the national day week.. wah sian!! and she hasnt given me the materials!! how to prepare??? tmr still need to go back school to do the notice board.. ah.. sian..
and oso... 19/8/06... omg loh.. nightmare for me la.. that day is the day of the opening of the LEP block.. and i am appointed to be the "jiang[3] jie[3] yuan[2]" la... like need to explain things around to the GOH.. who is the minister of education la.. in ENGLISH.. omg... ask me speak in mandarin still okie... ask me speak in ENGLISH? where can i find the courage to speak publicly in english la? i will spoil the whole ceremony loh... omg... think i wun be able to sleep on the night before le loh... haix.. but no way i can reject it oso... so.. treat is as an experience loh... if i really made a fool of myself... i will dig a hole on the floor and hide myself inside forever le loh... haha.. jkjk...
end here first le... :D
