cry.........
dunno when u'll be reading this..
but i reallie dunno how to tell u by sms, by phone, in person
so i wrote here..
me nt purposely dun wan to force u arh
is i she bu de force
cuz i dun like to be forced too much
therefore, u, the person i ____,
how am i suppose to do sth, tt me myself dun like, to u??
can u understand?
when i force my snr,
u noe wad i'm telling him?
i said "haha.. must learn how to force ppl le.. so tt i'll noe how to force him next time"
for u, i'm already learning how to force ppl le...
but when i see u..
i juz couldn't allow myself to force u arh..
how i wish one day i can reallie force a person successfully le,
den i'll dare to force u...
if nt force de bu hao,
will only make u more miserable...
nt only once,
i feel tt i'm playing the guy's part in our relationship
this relationship is wad relationship i oso can't gif it a proper name
i'm initiating most of the time?
everytime after sch...
how i wish u can at least
once...at least once to sms me first...
everytime i look at my phone,
it is blank de...
see the phone blank...
my heart oso blank diao le..
everyday... everytime...
until i dun dare to she wang u will sms me first after sch
when other gal friends tell me abt how sweet their relationship wif the guy they like is..
i'll ask myself: how cum the sweetness i'm experiencing aren't the same as theirs?
at first i thought it's cuz u r a different guy from them...
eventuallie, i realised the sweetness i've gotten...
isn't wad a normal gal get...
other gals feel sweet becuz the guy initiated in sth...
becuz tt guy noe how to hong them....
nt tt u dunno how to hong a gal la...
but juz... when u sae u dunno tt i oso need to be hong...
i feel rather disappointed lohx...
i'm a gal afterall lehx...
ya...? i'm a gal!~
i oso need to be hong..
i oso hope tt u can be initiative..
i oso hope tt i dunnid to initiate everything everytime...
is it cuz i everytime initiate...
u eventuallie think i dunnid to be hong?
cuz initiating is wad a GUY do normally...
n ur thinking will eventually think i'm more to a guy?
u dun ask me to go find other guy...
no use lo..
all these things i only hope to get from u...
other guys can be wad i wan...
and so?
i dun care arh
i only hope u can be wad i wan..
u understand?
maybe reading le all these u may think i'm selfish
wan u to be this, to be that..
yet i'm nt wad u wan?
this one... u haf to tell me le...
cuz i reallie dunno, DUNNO, wad u wan exactly....
shedding tears....
very painful de...
nt eyes pain...
is heart pain....
cry.........
dunno when u'll be reading this..
but i reallie dunno how to tell u by sms, by phone, in person
so i wrote here..
me nt purposely dun wan to force u arh
is i she bu de force
cuz i dun like to be forced too much
therefore, u, the person i ____,
how am i suppose to do sth, tt me myself dun like, to u??
can u understand?
when i force my snr,
u noe wad i'm telling him?
i said "haha.. must learn how to force ppl le.. so tt i'll noe how to force him next time"
for u, i'm already learning how to force ppl le...
but when i see u..
i juz couldn't allow myself to force u arh..
how i wish one day i can reallie force a person successfully le,
den i'll dare to force u...
if nt force de bu hao,
will only make u more miserable...
nt only once,
i feel tt i'm playing the guy's part in our relationship
this relationship is wad relationship i oso can't gif it a proper name
i'm initiating most of the time?
everytime after sch...
how i wish u can at least
once...at least once to sms me first...
everytime i look at my phone,
it is blank de...
see the phone blank...
my heart oso blank diao le..
everyday... everytime...
until i dun dare to she wang u will sms me first after sch
when other gal friends tell me abt how sweet their relationship wif the guy they like is..
i'll ask myself: how cum the sweetness i'm experiencing aren't the same as theirs?
at first i thought it's cuz u r a different guy from them...
eventuallie, i realised the sweetness i've gotten...
isn't wad a normal gal get...
other gals feel sweet becuz the guy initiated in sth...
becuz tt guy noe how to hong them....
nt tt u dunno how to hong a gal la...
but juz... when u sae u dunno tt i oso need to be hong...
i feel rather disappointed lohx...
i'm a gal afterall lehx...
ya...? i'm a gal!~
i oso need to be hong..
i oso hope tt u can be initiative..
i oso hope tt i dunnid to initiate everything everytime...
is it cuz i everytime initiate...
u eventuallie think i dunnid to be hong?
cuz initiating is wad a GUY do normally...
n ur thinking will eventually think i'm more to a guy?
u dun ask me to go find other guy...
no use lo..
all these things i only hope to get from u...
other guys can be wad i wan...
and so?
i dun care arh
i only hope u can be wad i wan..
u understand?
maybe reading le all these u may think i'm selfish
wan u to be this, to be that..
yet i'm nt wad u wan?
this one... u haf to tell me le...
cuz i reallie dunno, DUNNO, wad u wan exactly....
shedding tears....
very painful de...
nt eyes pain...
is heart pain....
