will i regret one day?
did sth... maybe i will regret one day.. but.. dun regret oso cannot le ba... feeling so painful now.. the feeling that i had more than one week ago is back.. back.. n much more painful...
to u: i dunno if u r reading my blog.. if u r reading.. i dun expect u to turn back oso.. juz expressing things tt i haf been trying to control whole day
expected this day to come.. ever since the talk.. haf a feeling maybe u r trying to hurt me less.. tt's y u did nt insist on ur initial decision.. after that talk... i've been trying hard to maintain wad we r now.. cuz i reallie dun wish to take any step backwards le.. however.. soon later.. i haf a feeling i'm only yi xiang qing yuan.. it's so painful for me at times.. trying to maintain an unstable relationship.. last time i can still forget the pain easily.. cuz u will treat me reallie nice n sweet most of the time... but now.. i had got lesser sweet talks from u.. whole day i haf to think of a topic to tok to u.. cuz i noe.. if i dun tok to u.. u oso wun bother to tok to me.. everything eventuallie seemed to be only i'm stupidly trying to control it from falling... until when u suddenly sae.. i dun seemed like i want to wan hui our relationship le.. if i dun wish.. i will juz give up at that time..
maybe i haf done sth wrong from the beginning... i shldn't have wanted to wan hui tt time.. maybe i wun get sooo hurt this time... this time is much more hurting than tt time.. hurt until i feel like i'm having difficulty in breathing.. in front of ppl... i act as normal.. once i'm alone.. nt toking.. nt doing anything... everything comes back to me again... listening to Jolin's "dao dai".. maybe reallie ai hui bu lai le ba..
though i've made that decision.. wad had change is juz our relationship... nt my heart.. juz hope u can be happier like this..
will i regret one day?
did sth... maybe i will regret one day.. but.. dun regret oso cannot le ba... feeling so painful now.. the feeling that i had more than one week ago is back.. back.. n much more painful...
to u: i dunno if u r reading my blog.. if u r reading.. i dun expect u to turn back oso.. juz expressing things tt i haf been trying to control whole day
expected this day to come.. ever since the talk.. haf a feeling maybe u r trying to hurt me less.. tt's y u did nt insist on ur initial decision.. after that talk... i've been trying hard to maintain wad we r now.. cuz i reallie dun wish to take any step backwards le.. however.. soon later.. i haf a feeling i'm only yi xiang qing yuan.. it's so painful for me at times.. trying to maintain an unstable relationship.. last time i can still forget the pain easily.. cuz u will treat me reallie nice n sweet most of the time... but now.. i had got lesser sweet talks from u.. whole day i haf to think of a topic to tok to u.. cuz i noe.. if i dun tok to u.. u oso wun bother to tok to me.. everything eventuallie seemed to be only i'm stupidly trying to control it from falling... until when u suddenly sae.. i dun seemed like i want to wan hui our relationship le.. if i dun wish.. i will juz give up at that time..
maybe i haf done sth wrong from the beginning... i shldn't have wanted to wan hui tt time.. maybe i wun get sooo hurt this time... this time is much more hurting than tt time.. hurt until i feel like i'm having difficulty in breathing.. in front of ppl... i act as normal.. once i'm alone.. nt toking.. nt doing anything... everything comes back to me again... listening to Jolin's "dao dai".. maybe reallie ai hui bu lai le ba..
though i've made that decision.. wad had change is juz our relationship... nt my heart.. juz hope u can be happier like this..
